Written on the 9th August 2021:

Today I?m going to meet my second baby. It?s a bit of a surreal thing to realise. But I guess that?s the difference with a planned c-section to going into labour. 

I?m excited to meet them, see what they look like and find out if it?s a boy or a girl. I?m excited for this next phase to begin. Where there?s a baby instead of a (massive) bump.

I am of course nervous about the operation side of things. But in many ways feel calmer about the operation itself knowing I?ll have the pain relief I didn?t have first time around. The recovery period is quite an unknown too. But will take it slowly.

I wanted to take some time to just write a few words about how the pregnancy has been. Probably more for me than for anyone else who may read this (as much as I’m out of practice, I find writing/blogging cathartic) In all honesty, it?s been difficult. Not because of huge health issues but I?ve had a few complications in the mix this time. On top of the emotional rollercoaster that?s been 2020-2021. Pregnancy in a pandemic adds a new level of worry to everything.
My first birth wasn?t a smooth sailing experience and so deciding to try for a second and consequently finding out about being pregnant brought up a lot of emotion for me that I had buried deep into the boxes at the back of my brain. I was very very convinced for a long time that one child was perfect for us as a family, and if that had been how life had gone ...